Blog Entry
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
you know,these few years,i fight with myself alot.
i blame myself alot.
and...
now,you came to my life and made it worse??
i dunno.
i dunno what are the correct things to say,
the correct timing to say them,
and the correct things to do.
come to think of it,
i find joy in making you happy.
school is such a bore.
i was telling karen.
if they dun go,i'll go.
haha.
i think i m damn mean can.
but seriously,i dun like them.
they are such......????
i dunno la.
maybe i'm just bias against them.
but io was not the only one pissed okay.
they were really HELL irritating.
it will feel weird tomorrow.
sorry that i screamed just now.
i think you wanted to be there,
but i could see you were damn irritated with me when i screamed.
i was just schocked okay.
you are like ghost.
appear out of no where,
then disappear so fast also.
weiting,those were not mood swings okay.
face up to your feelings.
no use dragging on.
it would just be worse.
i'll tell.
been through it already la.
if she really is your friend for the right reason,
it will be just fine.
A-OK.
i'm getting very tired of this game that you are playing.
just tell me,
who are you mann...
if i dun know you,
dun make me pretend i do!!!
walao.
i'm really sick.
but tomorrow i should be going.
tomorrow should be a good day.
i hope tomorrow some will,
*poof* vanish....
oh my!!!!
haah
they are DAMN compatible la.
i thought i was dreaming,
but then i woke up to pee,
and i saw.
WACAO
SO LOVING.
but,somehow....
that was very very sweet.
it just goes to show ANOTHER part of you.
haha.
you got alot of parts la,
must slowly slowly reveal.
layer,by layer
like onion like that.
hah.
seriously.
i think it is getting a little difficult.
i cannot differenciate the difference between like,and like like.
die.
if i go around telling all the guys i like them (not that i do)
just to find out that i dun,
i'll be such a bitch.
michael sent me a damn weird message.
i was like what??
huh??!!!
then he said just testing.
i was wondering??
testing what??
me??
i dunno.
he is weird mann...
for now,i dun believe.
i think i am like you leh,
i dun trust people that easily.
and i dun really open up that easily too.
you say i m close to alot of poeple??
really meh??
we are just superficially close la.
at least,i dun think we are close.
i dunno...
but my close friends mean alot to me.
and i like the connection that close friends have.
that silence,but understanding kind of thingie.
that is why i love shan so much.
i think she understands me more thatn i understand her.
haha.
okay,i'm damn mean.
but i have friendships that i m the one who understand more wad.
it is a fair balance.
shan says that it is karma.
okay mann.
seeing weejia play the piano today make me want to learn piano again.
i think i m damn pathatic you know.
my mum sign me up for alot of courses,
but i never managed to complete any...
haha.
piana,guitar,ballet,swimming.
i forgot what else already,
but i never manage to comple the whole thing.
it is just so uncool you know.
now,i wanna take everything up again.
dancing,swimming,singing,piano,guitar,cooking.
i want everything.
i want.
i want.
i want.
oh,i dun really care that you hate me,
cause i cant think of any of your good friends who share the same view as you.
plus,you dun mean anything to me.
this is just to clarrify.
BAD DEBT---- money that you will NEVER get back EVERY again
CURRENT LIABILITIES---money that you lent someone that you WILL get back SOON.
LONG-TERM LIABILITY---money that you MAY get back,but after a LONG LONG TIME.
understand now??!!!
so now,
when i use these terms,
stop asking me what it means mann.
7:47 PM