Blog Entry
Friday, May 26, 2006
they are gone again,
today was a sad sad day.
not because they left,
but i didnt really like today.
i felt..........bad.
cleaning with putera and berna was fun though.
it was damn funny,
cause i was talking about breast friend,
and putera was laughing like crazy.
i think her thinks i'm les,
cause i was commenting on how this girl can dress.
and she has a nice figure tooooo.
suddenly the moments gone,
and all your dreams are upside down.
you know,
i got something out of that seminar.
he said taht the world was balanced.
the happier you are now,
the sadder you may become later.
the better higher you climb now,
the higher you fall later.
it is a balanced world.
the pros and cons are on the same level.
and i've accepted that fact.
and it's really really true.
haha.
i guess i know why you bring the same equall amount of pain and joy into my life.
haha.
but somehow,
the pain seems so unequall to the joys.
nevertheless,i still love you mann.
thanks for all the memories.
i saw you walking that day.
i wonder if you remembered that same exact path.
that same path we walked on.
i know it will never be the same again.
and i'm fine with it.
i'm putting you down and moving on.
a load of me.
thanks guys.
you changed my life mann.
for the better,or the worse,
i'll always rember that i once loved you.
my results suck.
i cant even go to I.T.E.
i wonder why she looked so sad today??
she has everything she wants already!!
somehow....
i just feel that i really really dont understand her anymore.
i was damn pissed with sumo today okay.
and i think sumo is a horrible name to give her.
1) i'm not all that slim.
2) everybody seems to know who sumo is.is it really that easy to guess??!!
you know,
i see a reflection of myself in meifen.
and listen to the best part,
i dont even like her,
haha.
so i see myself as a person whom i dont like??
SCARY.
i'm gonna change for the better.
i better stay committed.
if not i may just end up like didi.
you know,
lam xinni is damn cute.
haha.
she's hell funny okay,
and she's a great friend to have.
i see the way she treat her close friends.
walao,
i feel so touched laaaaaa.
LAM XINNI,YOU ROCK,DONT EVER CHANGE.
oh,one thing you can change though,
STOP BEING SO BLOODY PERVERTED.!!!
the M.O.S party is a tea party.
haha.
at least that is what bobo and sheng min told me laaaaa.
haha.
after living with so many guys,
putera does not make me go all paniky anymore.
thanks god.
i love you.
i believe you planned all these.
i love you to the moon,to the sun and to the furthest place in the universe,and back down,to the bottom of the sea.
in another words,
i love you like i can ever love.
i only have one wish.
i dont give a damn about us.
but i give a damn about you.
be happy!
if you are sad,
it will hurt me more than us not being close.
bacause everythime i see you sad,
i'll cry,
not because i want to.
but because i cant controll.
you'll never see me cry,
not anymore.
but i'll keep you in my prayers.
i only want you,want you and her to be happy.
seeing you smile,
brightens up my day like a thousand suns.
and your smile work wonders mann.
everytime i'm on the verge of tears,
your words,actions,smile,laughter just makes me strong enough to go on.
i hate it when we fight,
i hope this doesnt end up like last year again.
i want to watch the swimsuit thingie.
evelina went to school with me today.
haha.
70 meesiams?
700 cakes?
dunno what shit laaaaa.
anyway,i love you as much as *ahem*
9:38 PM