Blog Entry
Friday, June 09, 2006
i just read some dumb mushy part from dada's blog.
haha.
now i think i know how i sound.
yuckssssssssss.
haha.
i swear,today is the last.
kelvin is hell sweet okay.
these few days i've been feeling like shit,
and i think he sensed it laaaa.
he stayed up with me till 3a.m to talk crap laaaaa.
and i m not even like,close to him.
haha.
i need these kind of friends you know.
not one who would sit down and listen to my problems,
i need one who would make me FORGET about my problem.
make me smile and think about OTHER THINGS.
i love youu.
haha.
we were talking all night,
and he told me the biggest sacrifice is one that is not known.
i agree.
sorry that i complained about how much i gave to you.
it's useless,
you cant see.
and you wont feel a thing.
so you know what,
i'll be more discreet about it.
haha.
i never loved her that much if i cant even be bothered to sacrifice time for her.
i'm going camp with shan.
haiya,
for her,i'll go laa.
stupid piece of shit.
that micheal is hell irritating.
i dont understand why people like to keep me in suspense,
fine la,
he dont want to reply,
i dont want to know.
fugly bitch.
eh,assholes.
which part of ONE AND ONLY,FIRST AND LAST,
do you not understand?!!!
the one and only part,
or the first and last part.
walao.
not everyone can make me fall for them okay.
i m LOYAL as can be.
take me back to the start.
i dont want to look too available to you.
but i'm always sooooo ...
i dont know.
you just make me go desperate.
seriously speaking,
i dont mind being used by you.
but,hey,
now i've realised,(kelvin is such an angel)
that i never really liked you,
i just wanted to POSSESS you.
it became a game you see.
and maybe a few years down the road,
when i look back,
maybe i'll realise that i really like you,
but for now,
i dont want our relationship to be a chessgame.
although i want to hear you say you love me,
but that is WRONG mann.
you are a greatest most fabulous friend,
and it will not be gone cause of my stupidity.
happened twice,
i cant seem to be happy.
actually to think back now,
you were always the one to reconcile.
sorry yeaa?
know that you mean alot to me,
i just fear,
i dont want to look desperate.
i dont want you too be so grossed out by me,
then run away.
so i wont make the first move.
i'll wait for you.
4:54 PM