Blog Entry
Monday, July 10, 2006
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY SHANNNNNNNNNNN.
YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU,
AND I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO.
i hope you had a pleasant surprise this morning.
although you didnt look very :) the whole day.
the dinner surprise was great mann.
i'd load some photos for you.
YOU ROCK BITCH.
hahah.
loves,your personal materialistic indonesian backside.
at least,the flowers were rather pretty.haha.LOVE ME,FEED ME,NEER LEAVE ME.
today is not a very :) day.but i'm rather happy though.haha.causeeeeeeeeee,.........jeanette and shan are funny people.during the mass lecture,some group was making alot of noise.we were all rather irritated you know.my muffins failed me,haha.sorry berna,no chocolate banana muffins tomorrow.THURSDAY,i promise.did i mention shan makes great poems.but it sounds to heart-broken. :( thats just sad.
why cant you see what you're doing to me?
oh,i havent benn talking about didi and dear much have i?i still love them.but i've been too busy busy la.didi,dear,i love you forever and ever more okay.call me,beep me if you wanna reach me.hahha.i'm just a call away.i'll be there.PROMISE.
prelims are just SEVEN WEEKS AWAY.THAT WOULD LEAVE ME EXACTLY 1 WEEK FOR EVERY BLOODY SUBJECT.
lamxinni is damn funny.she's really damn cute la."this is really a very messy love triangle"haha.she and her stupidity.she held all of us back okay.in the end,we took her e-z link,bit it,licked it,and hid it.haha.
i've came to realise that i really dont mean a thing.you have 0 sympathy,0 empathy and 0 sensitivity.i guess even if i were to cry in front of you,you would just look,stare then walk away.i think i was blind,but i dont wanna give up.cause this is my last chance,just 1 more chance.i dont think it was my fault,you were the one in the wrong,but you wont apologise,then,i'm sorry okay.it's all my fault.happy now?i really dont understand you anymore right?maybe it's really time to let go.
you'll never see how i really feel.i have a very strong feeling,that everything you told me so far,was just lies.i really wonder,one more lie would'nt hurt right.tell me,promise me,you'll be there for me.i dont care if it's another lie,i dont care if you have to eat your words,i just wanna hear it.ONCE.
oh,one thing.dont deny that you're a player.cause it's a fact that you are.you might not have lead me on thinking that i like you.but you always play with my feelings like crazy.ARE YOU NUTS?!cause if you are,dont drag me along.wo tang bu qi.
CHERMIN LUM is damn nice.to hell with you if you dont agree.she's bloody nice,and some bitches just cant stop bitching about her.STFU la.she's damn nice,and i dont even know her that well.
looks like zy got my accounts tuition teacher.haha.given her fear of apnns,she's gonna die.cause he got abit of body odour.GOOD LUCK.hahahha.
i wanted to be mean.but i held back,cause i still believe in her.but i really just dont want to understand anymore.it's getting harder and harder for me to sit down and concentrate already.i'm begging you,pleading you,please let me go.or maybe,if you BOTHER to stop and listen,you'd just see.you never listen.YOU NEVER DO.you should try and listen once in a while,dont try to always prove your point.it doesnt work that way.IT JUST SIMPLY DOESNT.if you can see this,maybe you'd be more well liked.
even i can see,that's something's going on.love me,hate me,remember me,forget me,forgive me please.i didnt see your side of your story.i guess i was too self-centered.i've learnt,i've repented,i've changed.now,does it matter,or have i been too much of a burden?
didiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii,where are youuuuuuuuuu.i miss you like crazyyyyyyyyyy.it's been so long since we last had a heart to heart.
dear,dont be jealous okay.dont be sad.dont be angry.i'd always love you.and i'm sorry for today.haha.it's impossible for me to stop la,but i'd do it in private the next time okay.you know you mean the world to me.at least,you'd CARE.
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