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Sunday, July 02, 2006
that stupid fugly bitch didnt reply me yesterday,
karen wanted to comment when i scolded her a bitch,
but in the end,
she kept quiet.
ahahah
okay,so i had a bad day,
she's really an ass,
it would seriously kill her to reply me.
anyway,
yestereday was rather screwed,
i went zara to shoppppp.
yayyyyy
the ichibanboshi guy was really cute,
plus,service there was gooooooood.
have you ever sent a message to anyone,
and just stood there stooning at your phone for the next hour wating for a reply?
i did,you should try it,
it makes you feel like the biggest idiot.
tuesday is approaching,
i have a feeling i'll be calling lani up and i'll be whinning.
ahahahah
thusday is a super sucky day,
what's wrong with thursay mann,
class together-ness day?!!!
i'll dread it.
i'm different from you,
i wont go school everyday to just see her,
i'll come up with excuses everyday to avoid her.
i dont care,
i'm an escapee.
you know,
if you confirm with me that you'll reply me back,
i'll wait by the phone the whole day,
but even until now,
i've no messages from you.
by the way,i would have blamed EVERYTHING on meifen,
but i'm not THAT unresonable,
cause it wasnt her fault at all.
you cant hate a person in 1 day.
i saw you change like crazy,
so you cant hate a person in 1 day.
you better not.
my impression of her just went all the way down the drain.
somethings,i really need not know.
i'm sorry if i hurt you.
butt it didnt feel right.
cause you'd never understand.
i like guys who are alitte sensitive,
a little gay,
and alittle demanding.
haha
i'll feel secure.
i'll never spot check on the person whom i like,
cause i'd trust in him.
i hope that my future crush would be easier to like.
i kinda like laura's blog,
kinda cool,
really.
i thought of a gift to give shann.
and i'm still empty handed with evelina's gift,
i bought the stuff already,
all i need to do is complete it.
bob seems to know that i'm in a bad mood.
but i think he's thinking something false.
i'm eating like an elephant.
oh,
i think hei ren and fan fan's realtionship really makes me go green.
ahah
very envious one okay.
it's like damn cool.
it's people like these that make you think all realationships are cool.
dear,it doesnt matter who likes who anymore.cause i'm not in that complicated mess,and i hope you are not too.but even if you are,it doesnt matter anymore.sometimes,wishing too much isnt good.cause hope can drive me crazy.i hate it everytime i stare at my phone and wait for a damn call or message.i'm not desperate,and i dont plann to feel desperate.there would not be another time where i will send you 9 messages in a row.i swear.cause if you're really gonna die from replying me,then i'm also really gonna die from waiting.i dont know how you'll react if you found out,i doubt you know the messages were from me.haha.somehow,i can still remember you promised me a birthday present,you wouldnt even bother,i wonder if you are made from stone.?!or maybe it's because you're just blind;clueless.
i like one of michelle's post.
i'm not too sensitive,you're just insensitive.
i'm not too emotional,you just have no emotions.
i dont over-react,you just have no reaction.
i'm not stupid,niave or anything,you are just scheaming.
i'm not TOO trusting,you just dont trust anyone.
i'm not a hypocrite,you just dont know what's being polite.
i'm not a backstabber,you simply assume too much.
i'm not a drama queen,you just simply dont dare to show how you really feel.
i'm not too nice,you're just mean.
if i decide to blame you for everything one day,my list will never end.
but for now,i think everything is my fault.
because right now,
it would be very inappropriate to blame you.
you make me feel that friends are much more important than crushes;girlfriends;boyfriends.
haha.
i think if i ever ignore you,cause i'm busy with my relationships,
i'm sure you'd understand.
you'd not hate me,but i bet you'd scold me.
hahahah
everytime i talk to you,
you make me feel so ....good??? or should i say you make me feel better.
hahahaahha
but its' nice to know that someone's always there you know.
i suddenly want a gay friend.
they were ment to be.
i cannot stand people who show their affection in public,
haahah
everytime i'll stare at them,
then i forgot who i went out with that time,
but it was quite amusing,
cause she was asking me if i was jealous or something.
haha
then i was like,ummm yea.
but i really dont like it when i see the hands go all over.
the guys hands just run everywhere.
and i'll get really grossed out.
what's your defination of a kiss?
kiss (p) pronounciation (ks)v. kissed, kiss·ing, kiss·es v. tr.
To touch or caress with the lips as an expression of affection, greeting, respect, or amorousness.
To touch lightly or gently: flowers that were kissed by dew.
To strike lightly; brush against: barely kissed the other car with the bumper. v. intr.
To engage in mutual touching or caressing with the lips.
To come into light contact. n.
A caress or touch with the lips.
A slight or gentle touch.
A small piece of candy, especially of chocolate.
A drop cookie made of egg whites and sugar.
that was the distionary meaning.
but mine is about the same la.
i cannot stand saliva contact.
wheather or not,i take or receive,
i'll get grossed out.
ACTUALLY it depends on the person la.
cause i remeber that all my crushes,i share drink and food with them one.
ummmm,good friends also la.
but i still think the tounge tounge thing is still damn gross.
oral sex is worse.
i shouldnt digress too much but you get it right.
it's just DAMN GROSS.
it think i'll cry on the day i lose my first kiss.
ahahah
that sounded wrong,
but whatever la.
if tomorrow,
a message,or a call comes from you.
i'll be the happiest girl that day.
you should understand me well enough now i hope,
to understand what i fear most.
what is meant to be,will be.
why worry about anything else.
dont be an idiot to worry about today when it's already tomorrow in austraila.
oh,by the way,i still have a crush on you.
haha.
i love you bitch.
my post is super duper long today la.
that just shows that i'm really bored.
haha.
i'm sick you know,
i wanted to tell my mum that i was sick,
but then she'll bring me to the silver cross doctor,
and i dont really want to go holland today,
so i decided to tell her tomorrow instead.
then i can get an mc for tuesday.
YAYYYYY.
no school,no school.
laaaaaa laaaaaa laaaahhh la la laaahhh.
i have a feeling that i'd be called a loser again.
but i dont care.
haha.
11:57 AM